Ok, so I told myself that today I would call and set up the infamous appointment for the surgery next month. And.I.Did.Not.
I don't know why even simply making the phone call makes me nervous. It's crazy really. It's like I am secretly deep down thinking she is going to say, "Nope. Not going to happen. You are a lost cause..."
Ha.
Am I going crazy? I just need to do it already! I guess part of it is knowing that this surgery was one of our "and if nothing else works..." sort of things and well, calling and making the appointment makes is more real. So much hope and anxiousness and excitement all rolled into one for this surgery and the freaking phone call makes me nervous!
I don't need to worry about this though because I know that God has led both my husband and I here and we know that this is where we are suppose to be.
I will do it tomorrow.
I hope.
Goodness, I'm a mess and should stop typing while I'm ahead (I'm ahead right?! ;))
"By the anxieties and worry of this life, Satan tries to dull man's heart and make a dwelling for himself there." -St. Francis of Assisi
Surgery is a blessing!!! I promise! It's the best thing that happened in my life!!!
ReplyDeleteJust think the poor women 30 years ago didn't have these type of surgical fertility options. Surgery=healing!
You got this-make.the.call! You can do it! Just run without abandonement! ;)
Make the phone call! You will be happy when it's done.
ReplyDeleteCall already!! If this is something you need to do, then don't wait girl! you'll be glad you did it. :)
ReplyDeleteCall! Call! Call! (keep the chant going for full effect)
ReplyDeleteYou must post again tomorrow and tell us all that you did it! We are waiting!
:)
PS: That St. Francis quote is amazing!
Great quote by St. Francis of Assisi! I needed to read that tonight. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteSay a prayer before you dial. That will help. :)
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