So emotional

I don't quite get why I have been so emotional the last few days.

Even a sweet friend of mine asked me the other day if it was "that time of the month" because I was tearing up when she was talking about how much she loved her bf and how she was trusting in God's timing for the next step...their engagement.

I told her no, no where near CD1.

It's so strange, even for me, to be crying and getting goosebumps all.day.long. over every.little.thing.

BUT...I think I credit it to being the first of the year and there's something about the first of the year that brings about so much hope and anticipation for what the year will hold for us.

If anyone is lacking in the hope department...just talk to me and I'll happily give you some of the ample amounts of hope that I have.

I've mentioned it before, there's really no reason for THIS much hope but I won't question it.

I love it.

So, today is CD20 and a couple days ago was the first time I saw anything worth getting too excited about (just a very small amount of fertile cm) but still I allowed myself to think positively and run with that hope.

Then here we are CD20 and I have seen quite a bit of good cm...which of course has me thinking and has me hoping. It's been awhile since I've seen anything that good so that makes me feel like maybe my body isn't completely useless, but then again...it's my body and I just never know!

Either way, whether this month brings about something that we have been dreaming about and striving for for over 4 years or if it's brings another CD1...I'm ok because we are making steps in the right direction.

I'm in the middle of getting my charts done to send up to Omaha and I am excited for all that has in store for us.

Then again, seeing this good cm today has me thinking...and hoping...and I'm ok with that!

I'll end with a funny story. Tonight at Mass on the way in I noticed a pamphlet that said "Catholics and Infertility" and was shocked...I've NEVER seen or heard anyone talking about IF at my church or any of the church's I've visited. So on the way out I grabbed it and my husband whispered, "what's that?" and I showed it to me him.

Then he gave me this shocked and confused look.

Apparently he thought it said, "Catholics and infidelity.."

I, of course, laughed and said, "yes, babe...this is how I was going to tell you about my boyfriend..."

It was quite funny though and we both got a good laugh out of it. I haven't read through it but I will say one thing, it brought me much comfort to see that they were offering this because there were so many times (still are) that I feel quite left out when it comes to IF and the Church talking about it.

So in a nutshell:
-Thankful for all this hope!
-Say a prayer for me that my body is doing something worthwhile (ovulateovualateovulate!)
-I have not cheated on my husband.
-Yay for pamphlets with information about IF and the Church.

“Your journey has molded you for the greater good, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time.”
(Asha Tyson)