Oh how the struggle with IF had the days/weeks/months/years feeling like they were dragging by...so slowly...so painfully.
Then when I was pregnant, it seemed that some days dragged by but overall it FLEW by.
And of course, now, holding my 5 month old, I'm still in awe at just how fast it's going.
She's such a beautiful gift and I can't help but stare at her and thank the Lord for her.
One of my favorite times of the day is when I'm nursing her before laying her down for the night. I've implemented a rule for that time: no cell phone. I use to bring my phone into her room and browse on it while nursing her, before putting her down for the night, but then I think it just hit me...this time was precious and I was never going to be able to get it back. So out with the phone and in with back scratches, lullabies, and prayers.
My favorite time.
Oh that and when I go and get her first thing in the morning and she gives me the biggest smile and starts kicking her legs with excitement.
My favorite time.
Oh, I also love when she puts her little arms around my neck and buries her sweet little face in my neck.
My favorite time.
Too many favorite times really.
Just trying to soak them all up.
One frustration however, is that I have some people (people who know we struggled) asking if we "plan" on having more and if so, telling us that we should wait and space them out.
*Rolls eyes.
Listen up people, something my dh and I learned a LONG time ago is that we are not in control of our fertility-God is. Sure, if I could "plan" our next child (God willing we have another) I would love to be pregnant by the end of the year-regardless of the advice we've been given to wait and space them out. But like I said, all we can do at this point is cherish our time with F and pray that one day we have more. Until then though I'm going to try my best now to not dwell on the what ifs and fear of the future because nothing good comes from that. It's hard, not going to lie, but overall I think I'm doing an ok job not worrying about what the future holds at this point-prayer has helped with that.
Anyways, these days with my now 5 month old are filled with exhaustion, laughter, blessings and lots of learning/growing moments.
So blessed to call this little 5 month old my daughter...
I just wrote Reagan's 6 month post. I always thought everyone was crazy when they talked about how fast time went but they are right, it flies. She is so beautiful!
ReplyDeleteMegan:I never really believed it either...but it's def true!
DeleteShe is sooooo cute! And I totally can relate to this post! Love it! :)
ReplyDeleteAngela: thank you!
DeleteShe's beautiful! And she is getting huge! I love your attitude of enjoying this moment. It's easy to say, hard to do and totally worth it.
ReplyDeleteCM: "easy to say, hard to do but so worth..." Exactly!!!!
DeleteIt truly does fly by and I love the bedtime nursing, too. It's so sweet to be able to hold him and look at his sweet little dozed off face right before I put him in his crib. I just want to kiss his little face all over, but I know it will wake him up! :)
ReplyDeleteIMHPFP: oh yes to kissing those sweet cheeks...all day everyday! ;)
DeleteShe is beautiful! I agree with CM living in the moment is the hardest thing to do but so worth it!
ReplyDeleteKat:thank you! :)
DeleteI have been trying to savor the moments too! Because trust me, it only keeps going faster and faster! I feel like I found out I was pregnant only yesterday, and now C is 14 months old. Her baby days are officially GONE and she is all toddler now. I will blink and she will be graduating high school!!
ReplyDeleteHebrews: I can't believe C is already 14 months!!! Goodness...time is flying by!
DeleteShe's beautiful! And I'm sorry you get those annoying, nosy comments. We are still childless, so obviously no one is giving us advice about when to have the next child...but when people tell my friends such things, I'm annoyed on their behalf! It's no one's business, first, and second, you are so right - if IF teaches you anything, it's that our fertility and childbearing is not in our control! I simply cannot fathom anymore the people who think that having a child is as easy as deciding to have one...anyway, enjoy every moment with your beautiful daughter! (www.eccefiat11.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteEF:thanks for your comment and also thanks for leaving your blog! I was trying to find it again and couldn't!
DeleteYour daughter is beautiful. She looks like an angel.
ReplyDeleteMy son just turned 10 months and I can't believe how fast this time has gone by. We struggled for nearly 5 years before getting pregnant (and were just about to start the NaPro process when we got the surprise news we were pregnant). I totally get the frustration when people off their "helpful" advice or ask if they want another one. I always say, "Whatever God decides" and then follow up by saying that it took us this long to get H. If God wants H to have a sibling, He will give us one. And, I leave it at that. My friend has 4 beautiful daughters and she gets such rotten comments (IMHO) about how they need to stop, etc. What the heck! I just want to scream at people sometimes and say, "For some of us it's not so easy to have babies. Lay off!" So, I guess what I'm saying is that I totally get it and I commisserate with you.
Happy 5 months, F!
Molly: thank you! :) And I often say, "whatever God decides for us" also! Usually it's enough to keep people quiet! Usually...
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