Friday, March 16, 2012


Was two days ago and was also the first time I noticed anything worthwhile (yay charting).

Of course I was excited, because even though I have PCOS and need doctors to help regulate my hormones, and we are taking months "off" from seeing anyone, it's still nice to see something.

Unlike last month, in which i saw It seems that I'm an every other month kind of gal. Whatever that means! Because we all know with PCOS the odds of you ovulating on your own are slim to nothing.

But still, seeing something and feeling slight twinges in my right ovary (always just the right...come on left ovary, your sister seems to be doing all the work) always brings about a little hope.

And since I've been feeling rather down the last couple months, I rejoice at this moment.

God is a God of miracles and just because we are going on almost 5 years of marriage and no pregnancies, and we are in the process of working with Doctor Hilgers so we aren't seeing anyone right now to help with my wonky ovaries or hormones, well...who's to say its a completely lost cause?!

To some I may sound crazy.
But holding onto that hope and my faith keeps me from going crazy!!

Hope+faith=not going crazy.

It's just so weird though, that if I see anything or notice any signs of alleged ovulation, it's every other month.

Anyone else experience this or know of someone that has?

"Hope... is the companion of power, and the mother of success; for who so hopes has within him the gift of miracles." [Samuel Smiles]

St. Gerard, pray for us.


Laura said...

I have endo. and cuckoo hormones and don't exactly have the every other month like you- I just have crappy charts every month. Maybe a few days of white babies, some with OAD's in between, even with all the stuff I take. A crappy chart is SO annoying! But, yay for some good signs and twinges!

JellyBelly said...

Wow! Miracles do happen!! What a great sign!

imusthaveprayedforpatience said...

Yeah for something! As for the ovary pain, I think I usually feel it more on the left, maybe that means it's the one that's always working. I don't know. Our bodies are so darn weird and complicated and mysterious.

Grace in my Heart said...

Yay! Staying positive and holding onto hope are the only things that keep me going too. If I allow myself to get down, it is so so so hard to get back up. I'm hoping for ya, girl! :)

Sew said...

Hope is God!

Love your attitude!

Keep your head up, you are rocking in this time of waiting!

This_Cross_I_Embrace said...

Unmedicated PCOS is starting to rear its ugly head over here in NJ, too :(

I think I'm having an anovulatory cycle. Blech :( First time since ovarian wedge resection.

It is such a horrible, horrible syndrome :(

PS - I think your right ovary and my left ovary may have been separated at birth!! They are the "pick up the slack" ovaries for their lazy partners ;)

Sarah Jane said...

I just happened upon your blog this morning and wanted to encourage you. I have been struggling with infertility for 2 years and found Creighton last year. It has changed my life! I've been seeing Dr. Kalamarides in Austin (he trained 4 years under Hilgers). He's performed 2 surgeries to remove endo and fibroids.
BUT, I saw that you are going to Omaha soon to see Dr. Hilgers. I am so excited for you and will be praying that God will give him wisdom and discernment to help you find some answers. I've been told Dr. Hilgers is known for saying "I will never stop trying to help you get pregnant!" He seems like an amazing doctor.
I don't know where you live but Kalamarides has been great! And if you were close to San Antonio, maybe Austin is closer than Omaha?!?
I'll check back to see how things are going and I'll be praying for you! Blessings on your journey!

Faith makes things possible said...

Thanks for your comment and sorry for the slow response! Yes, I've heard about the Austin clinic but when my husband and I were praying about where to go, he told me "go big or go home, right?" ;) Needless to say, we are very excited to see where this journey ends up!!

How exciting that you've found an amazing creighton doctor close to you-we actually live up in the DFW area, so had we not chosen to work with Doctor Hilgers, Austin was our second choice!!

I'll be praying for you and your husband!!!