I am having to fight for this little one

And not that I would want it any other way, just that I thought my doctors office would fight for them also.

I discovered today, though, they definitely fit in the "secular" hospital.

What does that mean?

Well, apparently progesterone isn't that important to them.

I get the impression, if it goes up, great, if not, then maybe you aren't meant to be pregnant.

Here's how my day went.

Woke up at 11 and was bummed that I hadn't been woken up earlier from my phone ringing from my doctors office.

To say I was anxious for the hcg and progesterone results is an understatement.

Anyways, so I call them at 11:30 and here was the conversation:

Nurse: hello?

Me: yes, it's J and i'm calling to see if you have my lab results, since y'all close at 1:00 today and I most certainly can't see myself waiting until Monday. Also, this is our first pregnancy in 5 years and so I want to be extra cautious and do everything I can.

Nurse: Oh wow, y'all must have decided to relax!

*i say nothing but an uncomfortable laugh and an "ok." I am in a bit of shock that that was spoken, but not important.

Me: So do y'all have my lab results?

Nurse: Hmm, I'm not so sure, but I can check for you...oh wait, haha, they're right here on my desk actually.

*i start to get a little frustrated thinking about what if I hadn't called then...would they have simply waited until Monday, since their office was closing in 1.5 hours.

Nurse: Okay, your Hcg went from 250 on Monday, to 658 on Thursday.

Me: That's ok right, since I read that it needs to be doubling every 72 hours..right?

Nurse: Well, yes, that's true but I'd like to see the number higher, so you aren't out of the clear yet.

*insert pit in my stomach and doubt about anything I had ever read/been told.

Me: Oh, ok...what about my progesterone? I'm worried about it being low and about that one pill per night not being enough.

Nurse: Yeah, it seems it's only gone from 6.2-8.6. That's still really low.

Me: well what is your protocol at the office? I mean, it needs to be higher to support the baby.

Nurse: it's early in your pregnancy and that's all we do.

Me: so, I have low progesterone and you want me to keep going the same thing?

Nurse: that's correct. We'll have you do another blood draw Monday to see about those numbers...the hcg and progesterone.

*this is when I realize I'm so grateful that I trusted my gut and yalls advice about contacting PPVI to monitor my progesterone.

Me: okay, we'll I wanted y'all to know that we are working with a fertility specialist up in Omaha and they're sticklers for progesterone and they actually were quite concern about the Los levels and have over nights the injections to me. Do yall do injections by the way?

Nurse: we pretty much do the one pill at night.

Me: okay, well we are going to be working with them also and they want me to start injections today and I just wanted y'all to know.

Nurse: okay, I'll just put it down in your chart that y'all are handling that part on your own. Y'all have a wonderful weekend and don't forget your blood draw Monday!

So yeah, I was baffled a bit. I mean, I honestly assumed that they would be willing to do more, heck, even up the pills!! But no, they were sticking to what they know.

At first I wondered why we would have to go through all the trouble and send in our medical records into PPVI, and then get the letter only to find out a few short days later, that we were pregnant (my heart still is in shock and skips a happy beat when I say this!!!).

Well, it has been amazingly perfect because the nurses up there have contacted me and arranged for the injections to be delivered and all while I'm still trying to figure out how to ship my labs (which I may have figured out!!).

I was already in their system.

The timing was perfect.

Anyways, so in a nutshell, I'm so grateful for PPVI and their willing to fight for this little being, along with my dh and I.

The other doctors office is nice, don't get me wrong, I can just tell that they don't quite view this little one as a baby...but a pregnancy that could go either way.

It's the end of the day, my bum hurts from my first injection, I'm not cramping or spotting and I'm just sitting here, thanking God for allowing both my husband and I to be co-creators of life with Him.

I pray my numbers rise properly and that this little one continues to grow, so that hopefully, God willing we will meet them in 8 months!

Goodnight for now, I've got to get my beauty rest...tomorrow is our five year anniversary and I certainly don't want to have bags under my eyes!!

“Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after the other” [Walter Elliot, Catholic priest]

Saint Gerard, Saint Anthony, Saint Therese, Saint Gianna, Blsd JPII...pray for us!!