God gave us our time at the beginning...

My dh and I were lying in bed the other day chatting about nothing in particular. I guess my mind was wondering because he asked me what was up.

I told him about how I could not stop thinking about how we are so close to meeting our daughter, so close to meeting this little one who we have prayed for and missed for all these years.

We talked about our journey and how difficult and scary it was at times-not knowing when/how our family would grow.

The one thing we knew of was that we trusted that it would grow somehow-whether adoption or conception.

But that waiting and the not knowing...that was hard.

So unbelievably hard.

So hard that words could never do justice what it was like.

But then, my dh started describing how God gives couples time alone...just the two of them, and how most couples seem to get that time later in life, after their little ones are grown and moving out.

Then he said, "God gave us our time at the beginning of our marriage. And I know that our marriage is 100% stronger for that."

Hearing him say those words, of course, brought tears to my eyes. I couldn't agree more with what he said and the most amazing part about it is that, in the midst of talking about the pain of waiting and not knowing, he was seeing something beautiful...a gift from God...alone time that allowed him and I to grow and learn from.

He's always had such a great outlook on our IF struggle (which he said he'll blog about here at one point!!!)...sure he hurt and got mad, but his faith never wavered and he trusted.

He was definitely my anchor during months when I felt so lost or so down.

So, sure we didn't get a surprise honeymoon baby, or a BFP 6 months later after our first doctor's appointment, over 5 years ago...but what God has given to me, an amazing, faith-filled husband, is something I will always feel beyond grateful for.

"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person." [Mignon McLaughlin]