Cycle update

Today is cycle day 29.

So of course this morning I tested. And it was negative.

I was sad but not devastated to the core to see the BFN-it's kinda the norm with me..especially since I test more than I should (ie:after I was told I didn't ovulate and my period was late so I thought maybe and tested...or the time my period had started but I wanted to be pregnant so bad that I convinced myself I was only "spotting" and tested...ha, yeah these are just a couple of the many times...).

I honestly don't know what I'll do when I actually see a BFP...cry? Shake? Sit stunned? Jump up and down? Pee myself? Scream?

Who knows?

I really was expecting my period to come yesterday since I'm fairly regular (26-28 days) but of course was more than excited that it didn't come.

Right now is the "ignorance is bliss" stage. The stage right towards the end of the 2ww where it could go either way.

Of course a sane person would say if one tested on CD29 and got a BFN then she's not pregnant BUT I am thinking "you never know..." because my period has yet to arrive.

So as of now, it's a waiting game. I know I talked about checking out this cycle when I got my crummy progesterone results but that hope crept back in and here I sit...cautiously hopeful.

Cautiously hopeful and boo.bs just now starting to get sore and still the slight cramping that I've had since around/after the alleged ovulation time.

Cautiously hopeful and offering it up (for the umpteenth time!!!)...

Hope.
Trust.
Believe.