Update on the baby making subject

This past month I decided that I wasn't going to take any medications (ie:Clomid or the trigger shot) but would still go in for my day 14 sonogram to see what was happening in this little ol' body of mine.

Well...I went in on day 14 to have my sonogram to see what my ovaries were doing (sans medicine so I wasn't expecting much) and low and behold my right ovary had a great size-20x21.

For me this was huge, I have PCOS and have NEVER produced anything on my own without the help of meds...

The nurse asked if I wanted to do the trigger shot. I of course said no.

I was sort of in shock that my body did something on it's own and the way it was suppose.

Big high five to that right ovary.

Well, needless to say with work schedules and all the craziness that is life, timing might not have been perfect this month (if I had even ovulated that is) and so I wasn't expecting much. Just trying to hold on to the good news that my ovary was doing something right.

Fast forward to today...CD1.

Cramps.

Bloating.

The whole nine yards.

But I wasn't devastated like I normally am.

No, today I felt sort of like you feel when you are outside and it's bright and sunny and there aren't many clouds but for a moment there's rain drops-kinda confusing.

Yeah, so I was feeling kinda confused. I wasn't happy because well...it was CD1.

But, I wasn't sad because my body did something this month that it has never done before.

Baby steps.

So, we've decided that we are going to take a couple months off before looking for a new RE because this current doctor wants me to meet his doctor (ie: IVF or IUI) and that's something that we have personally chosen not to do.

We are praying that during this couple of months off from meds (um, hello my body might not even need them...or was this just a fluke month!?!) and then praying that the God leads us to the right doctor.

It's quite refreshing knowing that I'm not going to have 1.2354345 billion doctor's appointments this month and that I don't have to get hot flashes from clomid (hello, I live in TX...I get hot flashes withOUT the help of meds!) nor pay an arm and a leg for the meds.

Who knows, we may just relax ourselves into pregnancy-hahahaha...we know how well this works, ladies! A girl can hope though, right?! ;) or just use this month to take it easy before pursuing the doctor's appointments again in full force next month or whenever.

One day at a time.

One month at a time.

Baby steps.

We are trusting God fully and leaning on him not only in the bad times but also rejoicing in the good times (and those small baby steps). Our faith has us trusting and hoping beyond what I ever thought I could and for that I am grateful.

"Never let the odds keep you from doing what you know in your heart you were meant to do."