"Miracles [to some] are simple...belief is hard"

After not falling asleep until 530ish...I woke up this morning feeling all out of sorts.

Anxiety had completely filled my being.

Worries about fertility.
Worries about financial stuff.
Worries about my spiritual life.
Worries about...
Worries.

I sat in bed and prayed that God world please grant me some sort of peace of mind, heart and soul.

I prayed and prayed and vowed today I wouldn't let anxiety and worry dominate over me.

So...my dh and I washed the car together and enjoyed the beautiful Texas weather, together.

And this helped.

We then went on a run together.
Well, with the crazy 6 month old lab-which will not happen again because he's too spazzy at this point. That and my body was struggling with the run alone- since it had been far too long since I've run-and crazy pup made it more difficult.

That helped lift my spirits even more. I mean, hello endorphins!

Then I showered and did a little crafting before we got ready for adoration.

Crafting always helps a bit.

Then on our way to adoration we decided to do Day 2 of the St. Damien novena. [Side note-my big brother is awesome and decided that him, my SIL, my husband and I and my little brother and his wife would all pray this together starting yesterday...praying for us to conceive and also for my little bro and his wife who are trying also].
Reading day two brought me to tears...God was speaking directly to me through this novena...the words are exactly what I needed to hear to help me continue to get out of my funk. These are the words that spoke directly to my weary (but mending!) heart:

"...I humbly ask that in addition to the particular grace that I ask in this Novena, you would grant me the favor of never becoming discouraged in the adversities of this life. May I always be encouraged by heavenly hope that I might always live confidently in your merciful love."

Exactly what I needed to hear-God's good like that.

Then we went to adoration. I was feeling a renewed sense of hope and a wave of comfort. As I was reading a book from the chapel and a line was highlighted in the middle of the page:

"Miracles [to some] are simple. Belief is hard."

The quote spoke to me and I truly felt that at that moment God was telling me to believe...to have confidence.

So I found myself re-offering up all my anxieties and worry to God.

And for the first time in quite while I felt ok.

So, it was a good day. I had not only physically worked out but i feel as though i had emotionally, mentally and spiritually "worked out" as well.

And boy oh boy did I need this day.

Thank you Lord.

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."(Albert Einstein)