Hearing about this potential adoption is obviously very big news for us and I wanted to shout it out loud, asking for prayers, but instead I knew that wouldn't be the smartest move...
So, we've told my Gm, two brothers and SILs and of course his parents know because my MIL is the one who told us!
Oh yeah, and I told the world wide web.
But other than that, that's about it.
We definitely appreciate and need all the prayers we can get, but since it's still so new and there's still so much we don't know, well...I like the idea that if it doesn't work out then there's no back peddling around to tell people it didn't work out.
That would be emotionally draining!
And yes, my emotions are already invested.
There is no way I cannot not be emotionally invested.
I mean, I get emotional about the little things and well, this is sorta big...
Big in that your life is forever changed and the dream and desire and yearning you've been searching and praying for for all these years could potentially happen in a few short months.
So yes, maybe it's dumb for me to get so emotionally invested and yes, I may just get my heart broken again, BUT I'm a woman of faith and a firm believer that "God doesn't give more than we can handle."
I will say though, this time around (what the heck, how can I say this time around again in only a few short months) I'm not abusing my google search engine!!
Last time I searched anything and everything about adoption.
This time I haven't done it once.
I think that may be the one thing I'm doing to "protect" my heart, in a sense.
Oh geez, I don't even know where I'm going with all this...it's obviously on my mind.
I'm praying for calmed nerves and a complete submission of this to our Lord.
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