Follicle #2, hope, prayer buddy reveal

We've been so busy with Christmas fun-family in town, lots of food and plenty of laughter. I haven't blogged since my bummer of a post last week and things have changed since then...

My follicle check number two happened on Monday. And to be honest, I had already checked out this cycle. I had planned NOT to go in and have the same thing happen again and be disappointed. Emotionally I couldn't take it. Spiritually I was overwhelmed.

That's right...so I decided to not go.

Well, then Monday morning came and I shot up-wide awake and feeling that I would be more disappointed for not going than whatever they would (or wouldn't) see.

So I went.

And boy was I SHOCKED.

They found a good, mature follicle...23mm!!!

I wasn't expecting anything. I prayed my rosary on the way there and asked for strength.

Little did I know that my dinky little ovaries would actually be doing their job!

In aaaaaall the months pre-surgery that I had gone in for a follicle check, I never saw anything worth writing home about! Well, except for a year ago...they found one that was decent and I got the shot but, that was when I was on waaay more meds/shots.

This time I was only on clomid and metformin.

So I got the shot and walked to my car, jaw still dropped open in shock, goosebumps up and down my arms, heart racing, bum hurting (from the shot), smiling like a fool...

I called my dh and he was so excited and just as shocked. We're just not quite use to hearing good news in regards to fertility.

So there is hope this cycle.

Oh me oh my.

Hope.

I cling to that because at times, it's all I got. I've actually been told that I have too much hope.

Too much hope?

Is that possible?

According to a couple people I've talked too-yes it is possible. Apparently, I should be more realistic and that way I don't get so hurt or burned.

But you know what? I don't care! I'll take my excessive amount of hope and go with it.

Will I get burned and crash hard when things don't quite go as expected?

Yes.

But...boy oh boy do those shining moments of good news bring pure and utter JOY to my heart.

So I'll take the hope!

Screw being "realistic!" ;)

Ok, I have so much more I want to catch up on, but I'm running out of time so I'll have to post about Christmas later.

But before I go, I wanted to announce who I was praying for!!
GOD ALONE SUFFICES!! :) I was beyond honor to get to pray for her and offer the good and not so good times for her and her husband!! And I sent an email to let her know so hopefully she got it! I'm working on a little something to send her but it's a surprise so enough talk about that! ;)

Also, a HUGE thanks to my prayer buddy, Sunshine at 'Time won't give me time'! Your prayers have brought me SO much comfort and so much (more) hope! THANK YOU!!!!

And lastly, don't forget to offer up a prayer or two for Mary-she's having surgery today.

I hope that everyone is doing well...I'm looking foward to catching up on blogs and staying up to date with commenting and posting.

Merry Christmas! :)

"Hope- choose to see through optimistic eyes"