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Thursday, December 30, 2010

Follicle #2, hope, prayer buddy reveal

We've been so busy with Christmas fun-family in town, lots of food and plenty of laughter. I haven't blogged since my bummer of a post last week and things have changed since then...

My follicle check number two happened on Monday. And to be honest, I had already checked out this cycle. I had planned NOT to go in and have the same thing happen again and be disappointed. Emotionally I couldn't take it. Spiritually I was overwhelmed.

That's right...so I decided to not go.

Well, then Monday morning came and I shot up-wide awake and feeling that I would be more disappointed for not going than whatever they would (or wouldn't) see.

So I went.

And boy was I SHOCKED.

They found a good, mature follicle...23mm!!!

I wasn't expecting anything. I prayed my rosary on the way there and asked for strength.

Little did I know that my dinky little ovaries would actually be doing their job!

In aaaaaall the months pre-surgery that I had gone in for a follicle check, I never saw anything worth writing home about! Well, except for a year ago...they found one that was decent and I got the shot but, that was when I was on waaay more meds/shots.

This time I was only on clomid and metformin.

So I got the shot and walked to my car, jaw still dropped open in shock, goosebumps up and down my arms, heart racing, bum hurting (from the shot), smiling like a fool...

I called my dh and he was so excited and just as shocked. We're just not quite use to hearing good news in regards to fertility.

So there is hope this cycle.

Oh me oh my.

Hope.

I cling to that because at times, it's all I got. I've actually been told that I have too much hope.

Too much hope?

Is that possible?

According to a couple people I've talked too-yes it is possible. Apparently, I should be more realistic and that way I don't get so hurt or burned.

But you know what? I don't care! I'll take my excessive amount of hope and go with it.

Will I get burned and crash hard when things don't quite go as expected?

Yes.

But...boy oh boy do those shining moments of good news bring pure and utter JOY to my heart.

So I'll take the hope!

Screw being "realistic!" ;)

Ok, I have so much more I want to catch up on, but I'm running out of time so I'll have to post about Christmas later.

But before I go, I wanted to announce who I was praying for!!
GOD ALONE SUFFICES!! :) I was beyond honor to get to pray for her and offer the good and not so good times for her and her husband!! And I sent an email to let her know so hopefully she got it! I'm working on a little something to send her but it's a surprise so enough talk about that! ;)

Also, a HUGE thanks to my prayer buddy, Sunshine at 'Time won't give me time'! Your prayers have brought me SO much comfort and so much (more) hope! THANK YOU!!!!

And lastly, don't forget to offer up a prayer or two for Mary-she's having surgery today.

I hope that everyone is doing well...I'm looking foward to catching up on blogs and staying up to date with commenting and posting.

Merry Christmas! :)

"Hope- choose to see through optimistic eyes"



20 comments:

Joy Beyond the Cross said...

You go girl - this is AWESOME!!!! I love the "screw being "realistic"" that is one of the best things I have read yet today.

Also, what shot did you get - an HCG trigger shot? I am just curious.

Oh, and Hebrew's isn't having surgery - Mary is!

Happy New Year!

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Faith makes things possible said...

Yes on the hcg shot!

And oops on the mixing up who was having surgery-I'll fix that niw

Awaiting a Child of God:) said...

Wait...one mistake...it's Mary that's having surgery, not Brenda from Hebrews! no worries but just wanted to let you know. Hebrews is keeping us informed. Hebrews needs prayers too but it's Mary in surgery. So we can pray for both!

I am soooo happy to hear about your pretty and big follicle!!! And you know what, I love your hope! Don't let anyone bring that down. Keep that up. It's better than being a Negative Nancy!!

Faith makes things possible said...

Lol! Thanks!!

And I corrected the "who" part of the surgery/prayer requests! I meant to write Mary but since I had just read Hebrews entry, she was fresh on my mind! ;)

Prayers for everyone of course, and especially for Mary!!

God Alone Suffices said...

Yay! The follicle news is SO exciting! :)

And thank you so much for praying for me! :) I'm seriously so honored!

Julie said...

I pray that the devil doesn't steal your hope and that God gives you peace no matter what happens!

Megan said...

HOORAY!!!!! I'm so excited for you! What wonderful news!!! :) Praise God! Woot!

Hebrews 11:1 said...

Go ovaries go!! That is great news.

Sunshine said...

Such great news!!!

What a relief too!

Kaitlin @ More Like Mary said...

"Too much hope? Is that possible?"

NO WAY!! Read this:
http://morelikemary-morelikeme.blogspot.com/2010/05/more-thoughts-on-hope.html

And why are you blogging?? You need to be in bed! ;)

JellyBelly said...

Yay follie!!!!!

Yes, screw caution! I love your attitude girl!

Perfect Power in Weakness said...

Awesome news! Keep hanging on to that hope.

Mrs. Henderson said...

Yay!! Such an answer to prayer. Congrats on the big follie! I am praying this is your month!

Ann - Building a Nest said...

That's great news! I'm so excited for you! Hope away!

I recall some wise chick guessing you would have at least an 18mm ;)

Faith makes things possible said...

Thanks ladies!!!! :) Nothing new to report as of now...I'll go in Monday for bloodwork so hopefully everything looks good!

Kaitlin-I LOVED your post-it totally reflects how I've been feeling! Thanks for sharing!

Ann-yeah, some wise chick did say that, however...I don't recall and I can't seem to look at my comments from last post! ;)

mrsblondies said...

So glad you had a great follie. Hold on to the hope for sure! Praying for you.

Ann - Building a Nest said...

I can't remember either, but she sounded BRILLIANT!

Happy New year!

Faith makes things possible said...

Ann- Brilliant indeed! ;)

Anonymous said...

Hi!

I'm a new reader who stumbled across your inspiring blog a last month. Congratulations on the good news! I'll be praying for you...

I am a young woman who was diagnosed with PCOS in Nov. I was wondering if you would e-mail me. At the moment, I'm not trying to conceive, but have lots of questions and worries and would like someone who's "been there, done that" to ask.

If you don't choose to contact me, that's fine and I understand completely.

God Bless

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